Sleepless
wow!!! its 3:33 now, the other time was 4:44. haha! this is cool.
hmm...its pretty early and i'm contemplating about my situation, i recognise the problem but it seems they are just smokescreen to something deeper, something i actually lack all the time. Something that i seek from others and something i long for. Now the desire grew stronger and subconsciously, i search harder as the day goes by. I acknowledge that i am in a state of ennui with the routine schedule, school basketball school basketball, there's nothing happening that really matters that really suck my interest. But they are just problems on the surface, the superficials, there are greater problems, maybe just one core problem that seems too shy to transpire in the eyes of strangers. That the basis of life, without it you live not, and in its presence, you are forever victorious.
Again, i may seem clear with my targets and goals but then are they just that or is it because others expect me to do so and thus i'm aiming for them. It's not mine i guess, it's their's. Maybe this is another ingredient that brews the boredom with a little something else. What do i want out of this year? The first month has past and many more to be past, procrastination is creeping back in again. Time flies, everyday i look at my phone and as the seconds tick, it seems that i'm spending time in prison, awaiting to be release back to where i belong and where i belong has turn itself into a dream forgotten. Where did i come from, where do i belong, where's where...
there're things to rectify, if not it will all be too late...siansss...i shall enjoy my one week break. =D
I need the last Element
hmm...its pretty early and i'm contemplating about my situation, i recognise the problem but it seems they are just smokescreen to something deeper, something i actually lack all the time. Something that i seek from others and something i long for. Now the desire grew stronger and subconsciously, i search harder as the day goes by. I acknowledge that i am in a state of ennui with the routine schedule, school basketball school basketball, there's nothing happening that really matters that really suck my interest. But they are just problems on the surface, the superficials, there are greater problems, maybe just one core problem that seems too shy to transpire in the eyes of strangers. That the basis of life, without it you live not, and in its presence, you are forever victorious.
Again, i may seem clear with my targets and goals but then are they just that or is it because others expect me to do so and thus i'm aiming for them. It's not mine i guess, it's their's. Maybe this is another ingredient that brews the boredom with a little something else. What do i want out of this year? The first month has past and many more to be past, procrastination is creeping back in again. Time flies, everyday i look at my phone and as the seconds tick, it seems that i'm spending time in prison, awaiting to be release back to where i belong and where i belong has turn itself into a dream forgotten. Where did i come from, where do i belong, where's where...
there're things to rectify, if not it will all be too late...siansss...i shall enjoy my one week break. =D
I need the last Element
posted by PHiL at 3:32 am
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