The Origins

Friday!! equals to Fries-day, therefore we ate our dinner at mr Junkie Macdonald! haha! Yichun asked me about my blog name...Paroxysmlink. Well, it hit my mind like a armaegadon, destroying all other words and phrases that lived in my memory. It means a sudden outburst of emotions and/or actions. When do we type our entries? When the sudden need to do so yeah?! That mixture of emotions expressed, ideas verbalised in languages, feelings felt respective to the heavy loaded words used, thoughts exemplified by personal experience. All these fills the blog with thought provoking heresy, challenged by different angles of criticism, yet enforced by faith and purpose, some may see it as lunatical, well i say its DREAM! Our character reflects our habit and mannerism; our words [carefully chosen since blog is publicised] illustrate our maturity and sensitivity; the content elaborates our desires, our lust, our mindset, our beliefs. People are so colourful, so majestic, so crappy [ME]! hahaha! okay! enough of bullshit...well since "paroxysm" was taken by another intelligent user, i decided to add a link to it, blog as a medium to connect to the rest of the world and probably to yourself. Charm once commented that blog is a psychiatric chair, then Lisha said its a way to know more about others, cant agree more with both surprising smart ladies...muhahahaha!!! some people say blog is stupid, never knew it existed till Junior College. You know me in Catholic high, green pants, green compound, green this green that, people tend to turn green, that explains my ignorance doesnt it? haha! well said Billy! owell, i thinks its beautiful, making serving the web not just for some things but for other things! heheehe =p so yup yup, that's how the name come about...heh.

First thought i was chewing on today was charity. The thought never ceased to be more interesting, like some new gum invented by mr. Willy Wonker that has an everlasting taste!! hahah!! Well, i was thinking men, we spend life studying, then working, earning lots of money, then living a luxurious life, then die rich. Well i make it sound so meaningless aye? YES!!! that's the idea i wanna bring across!!! You know what's the difference between a crippled begger who had a penny in hand, his income from the whole day of begging and offer his whole fortune to this poor little starving kid just for him to buy some food and this millionaire who once in a while bypass a needy, making no eye contact so as to avoid the building guilt. No doubt i've drawn extreme pictures but i want you to understand. Have Richness and Power taught us to be proud, arrogant piece of shit? Well, some people might think, the money is the prize of my ingenuity, the reward of this educational achievement, therefore they perceived that its MY $$$, others don't deserve it, because one very simple fact. They didn't work hard enough to earn it, I DID!!! Does this ring anything in your head? Hmm...i'm not trying ti say that you should donate all your assets or what, but at least i dunno! spare a thought for people less fortunate? You know why millionaires and billionaires attend charity parties and donate astronomical sums? Yeah...they do wanna show off their wealth but the very basic reason is that they want others to view them as philanthropic. That's the origin of us, to be nice, to do good. And the meaning of doing good is loving others whether that person deserve it or not. You shall not subject that person to your personal judgement for you a sinner has no authority to judge others. So be good and stay nice!!! :)

Second thought derived from me...of cos its from me, i thought of it!!! hahaha!! As promos is coming to an end, i was afraid that i will get retain, and the thought [not the second thought] seem to have become an obstacle for me when i'm mugging. Its like since i have high percentage of retaining, why bother working so hard? But i told piglet to try her best! So i say to myself, never give up without trying and i kinda like the feeling, working hard though slacking quite a bit. Its like if i kena retained then just balme myself for not working hard enough but i tried at the very last minute, all that i am able to do. hehe =p You know sometimes we like to be prophets, play God, try to predict the future, most of the time with pessimistc perspective. I was telling one of my friend who had a future in mind, something bad he contemplated about, so i told him, why think so far when it saddens you now till that day when you finally find out? Why not let things flow and when it really struck you just be sad for that moment. This was due to my excellent calculation of the length of time that person would be sad, the latter is significantly shorter. OH! i have this friend [i got lotsa friends!!! XD] he's having this long distance relationship, he's in US and girlfriend in Australia. Then that day online, i was chatting and asking him about his relationship and stuff liddat la, my question was "how y'all tahan so long in the absence of each other? i know absence make the heart fonder but too long will kill it!" and "What about the coming year when school term resume?" most people will say dunno la or just liddat lor. But he gave me quite a definite answer "we work it out day by day, securing each day with sweetness and happiness and it will keep you going for the days to come." Pretty sweet yeah, and apart from that, this is something you should not long too far into, like long distance won't last, so troublesome, what will happen tomorrow, that kinda stuff. Hmm...very tired lela! Well i know some things require you to think ahead, think far...but when you encounter things like what i mentioned above, try to keep your far-sightedness as short as possible...haha!

Finally i'm not telling you to pursue perfection but instead achieve humanity [to a certain level? VAGUE]. ohya...i once asked my dad, if selfishness is part of human nature, then wouldn't being inhumane good!! hahah!! then he talk talk talk talk about philo stuff that turn me off cos no room to rebut, furthermore no point arguing with a man so firm in his thoughts. i call that stubborn!! in my blood too i assume!! hehe =p

Played ball with teachers today!! Michael Wong ZAI but he's like laxing one! He showed me my mistakes and let me reflect on my own plays!!! NICE!!!

I LOVE MUGGING
hope nothing is too late!